WTF?

for the first time. i believe that u can do something wrong without noticing.. serious big problem..

i only know i did it after i ask the person next to me.. wtf?
i really dunno how come i dont feel or dont sense anything.. dont even know that i did it?

maybe it's a side effect of too much physically balling ba.. skin, heart, brain, nerves all dead.. cant feel or sense anything..

kinda tired.. but dont feel like sleeping.. dunno wat to do.. everyday i am so lonely.. doing nothing.. alone at home.. stare at my lappy screen.. if not.. at the playground outside.. with no one at it..

maybe i am supposed to reflect and think ba.. hopefully i could get a obtainable aim soon.... if not i will be just wasting my life like nobody business..