Happy Yet Sad

I am glad.. that i make it into the POL-ITE team..

but there isn't anyone i can share the joy with..
it kinda drop my mood down to the rock bottom..

Maybe.. Maybe.. if just a little text.. will revive my mood..

Gosh Gosh

wat a trip..
it just seems that everything pass so quickly..

wish time could travel back..
i would have done alot of things differently..
sometimes just wish i ain't that afraid..

guess my pals are right..
i am afraid of nothing.. but humans..
what a phrase that got into my life 8 years ago..
and its still here.. stuck with me..

dunno if i am ever able to get it off before i even dies..
hopefully.. i could.. cause i really wish to get a little bit of time..
just a bit.. even if its just 15 mins.. i tink its worth anything that i could give in exchange.. even if i have to amputate my limbs.. I can only pray that either i get kinda daring somedays.. or it just happen out of miracle..

A happy trip.. ended sadly when i am back home.. thinking about all the chances i have missed out..
but to be honest.. its a nice trip.. thanks all.. who made it nice for me.. but i gotta keep it a secret..
i really cant say a single thing.. cause i dont wanna feel awkward and uneasy.. it will just create an unwanting atmosphere..

Hope you will notice it.. somehow.. someways.. i just cant get to u.. i am just nothing but a weakling..

WTF?

Guess i just cant spare anytime for anyone...
should just live my life alone..

dont bother anyone...
please..
Ryouji, dont care about anyone!!!

Kinda Hate mankinds..

When you don't talk.. they say you are too quiet..
when you talk.. they say you are too noisy..
when you don't tell them the bad things.. they say you are not honest..
when you tell them the bad things.. they say you are teasing them
When you don't tell them their nice characters.. they say you don't appreciate them..
when you tell them their nice characters.. they say you are sweet-talking/boot-licking..

Gosh.. why am i a human?

what do humans really want?

Just there...

Guess i am just here for the sake of being here...

really? does it matters if i am not here after all?
dont think it will affect anyone.. i am just like a spector.. not having any influence at all..

Physically here..

This is my quote for the next year i guess.. will be sub-consciously in my brain, soul and heart...

misses alot of people.. the kids, the local guides, the people..

i would love to be part of their villages. wish i could migrate there..
got a sudden urge to go back there every month... but its impossible.. i am unable to sustain that kind of expenses..
guess this is just life.. showing u something nice.. but only for a while.. nothing really last..

Sad Day

What an unlucky day..

got myself more rest time.. lol

hope i wont get disfigured ba.. =((

Sometimes... Sometimes...

Sometimes just wish everything could stop at tat moment.. Stays forever.. But times and again, i just hope it pass quickly.. 我真的很累了。

maybe.. maybe.. maybe..

maybe all the truth are supposed to be kept..

and all the falses and lies are to be surfaced...

maybe.. maybe.. maybe..

i should start to keep the truth and tell the lies..

is this really what i want?

is this wat i always wanted?

am i doing wat i feel like doing?

guess i am just letting time passes on its own..
pulling me along with it..

Just because i look blur doesnt mean i am blur

Does people always take looks for wat a person is?

guess this really makes me feel so much better den..


maybe i am meant to be bornt this way.. just like this..

Sleepy

Wat a day where i overslept and didnt go sch again.. zomg...

if only i have less time a day..
really dunno wat i can spend my time on..
so much time in the day.. nth to do..

guess sometimes i should really sleep my life away...

Sadden

Awww.. injured again..

gotta take a break from tough trainings again.. =((

kinda sad.. afraid tat i wont be able to catch up..

GOSH.. wat a time it came at.. zzz

damn it

Cant sleep well..

worry so much..

hope everything will be alright..

Gone with the Wind

Once again.. i am down.. back to my well of darkness..

i dunno why am i always looked down on..

am i really tat bad?

To be or not to be?

Am i suppose to just concentrate on one thing at a time?
are males really so bad at multi tasking?

so which am i suppose to do first?
which is more impt?

am i going to go crazy? Perhaps soon..

just hope.. i will get some inspirations soon..

Down in the drain

For the first time ever, i tink of quiting sch today.. zzzz

i dont like how i am graded.. i dont deserves those lousy grades..
i know all the info, can reason well with all my points..
just because i know too much, i am downgrade for not asking question? wat a good excuse..
cant someone know and dont ask.. if u know and yet u ask.. arent u wasting other people time?

So this is wat RP teaches u... Ask.. even if u know.. u gotta waste people's time.. dont give them spare time.. just keep asking... even if its irrelevant..

sucks!

Schooling!

first time i woke up at 6am.. for sch? lol

was still aching from the training on thurs.. zzz damn ass..

dunno wats wrong.. tink my muscles recovery rate too slow le.. aging le.. lol

hopefully next training i can play my own style ba..

havent been in my own style for all the trainings? perhaps just one or two times.. yeah..
so sucky to try and cope with others' playing style.. just not used to it.. zzz..

A weekend to look forward to!

Woah... long time no post.. =))

In school now.. after presentation.. so boring.. during my presentation.. not allowed to talk.. faci scare i answer all the questions or query.. so dont allow me to talk.. zzz boring sia...

Going to enjoy my SAT!!! woot... ECP here i come..! =X
Most probably Sunday will either be helping out with PAPA smurf or being my 100% Nanny DAD again.. lol.. its going to be entertaining either case it goes..

hopefully will rain later.. till about 9pm.. den no need training..

have been so bored in class that got no mood to write anything..

yet. the person hasn't stop the inconsiderate act that has been done since the first day of school..
Hopefully.. i wont be so suay ba.. really hate it.. sucky!


So tired during training sia.. today coach a bit too happy i tink.. gordon came back and its at outdoor... keep running and running and running.. now my legs like jelly la.. first time my jersey so wet.. zzz.. dripping when i running.. zzz.. horrible..

finally know why is gordon such a gd player.. one really got to be close up in order know how good he really is..

busy weekend

woah.. was so occupied since thurs.. havent been so busy for so long...

was kinda tired.. but good.. at least i wont feel bored and emo so much.. keke

am packing up my stuff now.. keke.. hopefully today will go well too.. if not.. i will be so dead.. =X